So last night my fam and I had a conversation where I was told to “just write” and release. The way fam spoke made me see how not all writings need to be organized or structured right away. Sometimes the writing on itself functions as a tool for reflection, comprehension and release.
This is also the way I have always used writing as a part of my creative expression, but I have never tought as far as to just wing it when it comes to “serious” goals for my writing.
What I am hinting at is that I am in the process of writing a book!
This is dope and terrifying at the same time, especially since I have never done it before and I don’t really know how to go about it.
I just want it to be as raw, pure and honest as all of my writings reflect. And my fam telling me all I needed to focus on was the action of writing itself actually really soothed my mental!
We will figure all the rest out later.
Just like with everything in life, or at least mine.
My whole entire existence is merely a reflection of my being.
The chaos that I often find myself within is exactly what it is: within.
I am just the kind of being that figures things out while in the midst of things.
I am not much of a planner, but I do like to have control.
Conflicting isn’t it?
Welcome to the wonderous world of my mind.
A walking contradiction, most of the time trying to figure out what the hell is going on myself!
I mean, to paint you a picture just take my current situation:
I am sitting on the couch writing this little piece while I am literally surrounded by my own stuff.
Garbage bags of stuff that I give to the thrift store mostly, although I did not fully communicate the amount of stuff to them accurately, I am praying they are able to take it all with them.
But do I stress about it?
Nah, instead I choose to sit down and write my thoughts out like this.
I guess I trust the Universe so much at this point, or I am so humbled that I don’t take anything I go through seriously anymore, what ever it is it works for me.
Life is real beautiful if you let it be.
And the wide Unknown that I am about to leap in is offering me a sense of true freedom.
A feeling I have not experienced like this before.
I think I needed to “free” my Self first by cultivating Self Love and authenticity before I could take the steps towards freedom in all aspects.
The freedom to be who ever you are is the foundation, the freedom to do what ever the fuck you want flows from that.
So yeah, this year is pretty awesome until now.
Stepping into living my life the way I want to live.
Stepping outta Babylon.
Building the community.
Cultivating unity.
Give thanks for this beautiful transition and all soul family members walking with me.
Sending you all more love, more joy and more courage to be fearless with me!!!

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