As you might have read the last time, I started seeing an energetic healing in the beginning of August. Last Monday I had my second session, and I can tell you I was pretty nervous before hand! The first time I met her, I hadn’t got a clue what so ever about what this woman could do for me. I just went curious and also filled with questions (that came my way right before the meeting) and was amazed by the whole situation. But to be honest, it also cut me off guard. I did not once think to myself that this woman could really confront me like that with the hurt inside of me. This ofcourse was also pretty terrifying, especially knowing that this first session was just an intake. So as the days were slowly leading up towards the second session, I found myself getting a little more tensed about it, but on the other hand also more and more excited.
So Monday was the big day. I walked in (she always leaves the door open for you to walk right in, very comfortable) and she greeted me with a warm and familiar vibe. She asked me how my month had been and I told her about all the new things that came along like my drivers license and my new job. Also I shared with her how I had a few insights coming to me since our last conversation. She asked me about them and I told her how I felt some kind of resistance to some of the things she was saying to me the first time I had met her. But after four weeks of reflecting on it I came to some realizations.
*Side note: I feel that whenever you feel a strong emotion about something, whether it is a positive or a negative one, it means that it touches a part inside of you that needs attention. So if someone says something that makes you feel resistance, maybe they are touching a spot within yourself that needs healing.
The funny thing was, when I was walking from the bus stop to her house I asked my guides (or what ever) to help me with ”getting into it” right away. And after a short talk she looked at me and said ”well, you’re more of a jump person so let’s jump right in.” I thought to myself wow she felt my energy and wants well! She took a mattress from the closet, some pillows and asked me to lay down.
As I layed there she asked me to close my eyes. Right away she started asking me how I was feeling and where in my body it came from. I felt tension in my stomach area because of the excitement from doing this for the first time. Then she confronted me with the fact that I was explaining myself. She asked me if I had always done that, and why I chose to do that? I realized that I had always felt that I needed to defend myself and my right to be here. Then she asked me if I could just name the first thing that came in my head and from there she took me, or maybe even guided me to take myself, on a journey through my childhood. Reliving things that were important to re-view.